Tuesday, April 24, 2007

freedom


im relearning my body again....all my talk about being fired, and i went and resigned my position during supervision today (so easy to disown things and make it about THEM, right?)....my numbness started re-escalating at school today, the room i work in is a sauna, and theres nothing to be done about it

this is the kind of social work i wanted to do once upon a time in the land before diagnosis, but i really dont think i physically can-i really want to be kinder to self instead of getting self annoyed for having limitations....and for me, its head first and hard when i decide on something, so to draw back....i am not used to giving up on things, not getting what i want, so this is new too

but there is a possibility i can be transferred to outpatient, and should hear from my supervisors supervisor in a few days....i just need to do social work in a stable environment thats airconditioned, not at an agency and an uncooled inner city school and by doing home visits to the projects- especially in the summer.....and i do still work at the hospital and maybe someone will be close to ready for a vacation soon if the outpatient thing doesnt work out

this is a very different side of me emerging, not bolting when embarrased or "in trouble", which is in total paradox with my tenacity and yet it makes total sense...if im gonna quit im gonna quit as head first and hard as i would work

Song of the day: return to innocence- enigma

12 comments:

Cailin said...

Hi Molly, this is Cailin. According to FMLA doesn't the agency need to provide "reasonable accomodations?" I would think a controlled room temperature would fall under that. Could they provide a window air conditioner unit? My office is in an old school too, and in the summer it is unbelievably hot, but they let us work out of our homes on days like that. As for home visits, please please please be careful. I've done home visits to the projects but never without a security guard as an escort. I feel for you; it sounds like you are going through quite a difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Seems as though you are opening to possibility rather than closing and limiting.
Way to go!!,

Sorriah42 said...

I applaud you for learning and knowing yourself. Maybe you should give Akron a call??

molly said...

hi cailin,
thanks for bringing this into bthe conversation.....

i think you are actually referring to ADA or americans with disability act, and not the fmla (family medical leave act)...and yes, they do need to help meet needs but the office i share at the school cant support a small fan and a microwave let alone a window box

i will consider all open positions at beech brook though, and if there is one that is appropriate to my situation, i will give that a shot as well

molly said...

j
(blush) yeah, thats pretty much what i am trying to do...be open, unlimited (which is different then understanding limitations?)
travel well (is it business, pleasure?)
m

molly said...

thanks robin,
its too fresh to really know what i am going to do yet...

Sorriah42 said...

and you left your phone in the car again.....I figured you'd think that, but it was worth putting that little thought into your head.

Anonymous said...

Hi Molly, Yes, I did mean ADA. I do hope things work out with B. B., or that something else comes up.

Cailin said...

That was me, Cailin. I am a good friend of your coffee buddy. I enjoy reading your blog.

molly said...

hi cailin,
yes, i knew it was you, and i have read your comments at hcww....are you in town? you should join hess and i some morning (if i can get him to meet me every now and then again)

thanks for commenting, it was an important aspect to bring up, and can be informative for thpose experiencing similar things.....i dont know HOW i would manage if i didnt have a social work education!!

mj said...

Hi Molly, I would love to join you guys for coffee in the morning! 3 minor details, though. I don't drink coffee, mornings are an enemy of mine, and I live pretty far away, in North Royalton. How about an evening? Actually my name isn't really Cailin, but when I met Geoff I lied and said it was, so I use it on his blog.

Anonymous said...

big news about your job but I am glad you
are kind with yourself. its this world designed for people without different-abilities,
limitations... whatever you want to call it - there is so little space for creativity and
out of the box people. I know exactly how hard I can be on myself to make up for the
things I can't do... being kind to your body is the most important thing!
with overwhelming sympathy...

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