it was a grumpy, painful, quiet drip today. my veins have not been wanting to pop, out, and weve gone in at the same spot each day so far (i refuse to sleep in the needle stuff...i have to be repierced each day) and it totally ached today, and so maynard and i were quiet...he mostly caught up on paper work
while i just stared and my painful paw
neitzche finally felt comfortable around manard, and decided to sit on the couch and watch...unfortunately, he seemed traumatized by the experience
anyhow, my fever finally spiked today, and the mood started swinging. it is the first really beautiful day of the year, i should be outside, and walking, but im tired, tired and uncomfortable, i have adema in the left nakle and my skin is still buzzing, the leg stiff in the invisible cast, waiting waiting for the solumedrol to kick in, and really i just want to go home...
so i drove instead, watching couples, familys, women with dogs walking and biking and pulling strollers- such bitterness and crabiness with the three abreast in the street and the large amounts of cars on the side of the road- how dare they not be more considerate of us drivers!!...and then i thought,
"wait, gestalt it!" youre jealous, and reasonably so, but youre also projecting- think about how joyful it is for everyone out there- to use their bodies, their health" and i felt calm take over me, and i came hoome to care for self and i felt renewed in my decision...and this is one way in which i will be able to use gestalt
Song of the day: joyful girl- ani difranco
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Your teachers should be "proud mamas" (or papas as the case may be). Good for you to be able to do that. It's so hard to get outside of negativity. That's usually more then half my problem.
I wish Little One could gestalt his growth spurt / teething pain. Boy wouldn't that be nice. "Hey mama, I hurt, but, it'll be over soon." Actually - I don't think that's a good gestalt quote since I'm more then a little ignorant on the topic so, insert quote here: "______".
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